Time...

Time still tickling... It shows 1.21a.m. Everyone is on their bed but I'm not. Tonight I'm gonna talk about life and death. I have imagine maybe someday I will suddenly disappear from others sight... DEAD...

There are people who really hate that word, they say it's not the time yet, they have too much wishes that are not granted yet. Me, in the other hand, wish that my life would just ended like that. Perhaps dead in a car accident. Lying perfectly beautiful in my new home - coffin, show my last smile to those who visited me...

Readers might say that this author is haunted by suicide souls. Maybe... I have so much troubles in my life. I don't want to be a burden to others, that's why I ask for death.

I am a great actress in my life. I laugh although my heart is bleeding; I smile, although my tears is dropping; I speak, although my tongue is heavy. I feel happy when I saw everyone surrounding me is happy. I love everyone especially my best friends and my family. Thank you for loving me...

I always pray that I could LEAVE this world, not LIVE in this world. I know, this is not a good idea nor prayer... But what to do, Christian are prohibited from commit suicide... I really hate this life, sobbing all the time... I hate the hard feelings...

My whole life is haunted by tears and fears. I found no way to survive from these. Plus, the most horrible one, LONELINESS. Yes, I am a slave of loneliness. I hate to be alone, that is why I am the friend of lonely people. I can talk the language that they are talking, because I know how it feels...

This soul is now darkened because of my sympathy. I sympathy on wicked and dangerous people. Now I ended like this, as a funny topic to everyone. Maybe one day, I will enter the world of darkness forever. I sinned a lot, I ask for forgiveness a lot too. Somehow, today I have make an important decision in my life. And I will obey to this decision.

Time, please pass faster... I need rest.. I need eternal sleep... I need to bare with my responsible.. So time, please, pass faster...

A love story in Malaysia, The Legend of Puteri Gunung Ledang

This is a love history that took place in Muar, North of Malacca. Puteri Gunung Ledang, is a very beautiful jin princess who lived on top of Ledang Hill. She has seven sisters originated from Jawa, or currently name as Indonesia.

Puteri Gunung Ledang cannot be seen by human beings. Only certain traditional medicine men and people who list their way in the forest can see them, and even talk to them. Puteri Gunung Ledang was said to have a lover from Gunung Rundok (Mount Rundok). Every night they would meet each other up at Gunung Ledang until the next morning.

One day, Rundok was late to go back to his own hill. Their act that against the curse of jins causing the mountain top of Gunung Rundok slanted until today. Rundok had to stay with Puteri Gunung Ledang. They then were married.

After their wedding, they went for honeymoon to Pulau Besar at the Straits of Melaka. While sewing under a coconut tree at the seaside, Puteri's husband came from behind to shock her. She accidentally stabbed him at his hand. And surprisingly he died because of the stab of the sewing pin. Some said he was cursed to die if stabbed by a pin.

Puteri Ledang was so sad and swears to her husband that she would not marry again. At the same time, Sultan Mahmud of Malacca had just lost his wife. His Ministers had presented all sorts of beautiful women and young girls but none had won His Majesty's heart.

Few days later, Bendahara presented the story of Puteri Ledang to His Majesty. He finally agrees to propose her so that Puteri Ledang could replace her Queen's place. This story had been recorded as Malaysian well-known history. There are movies being made too.

To propose Puteri Ledang, Sultan Mahmud had sent Hang Tuah, Sang Setia and Tun Mamat as the lead. They face a lot of difficulties to reach the mountain top. Only Tun Mamat able to make it there. At the mountain top, Tun Mamat was surprised to discover a beautiful garden full of flowers with birds chirping and flying around it.

An old woman appeared and asks why they are there. After explaining everything, the old women disappeared and reappeared in a while. She then request for 7 trays of mosquito's heart, 7 trays of germ's heart, one barrel of tears, one barrel of young pinang juice, one bowl of His Majesty's blood and one bowl of blood of His Majesty's son, Raja Ahmad. She also requested His Majesty to build a silver bridge connecting Melaka and Gunung Ledang.

Sultan Mahmud then cancels his proposal to Puteri Ledang as those wishes are impossible to be granted. In my point of view, Puteri Ledang do such extra ordinary request is to reject His Majesty's proposal as she is still loyal to her husband.

Behind this love story, I see the existing of the great love between Puteri Gunung Ledang and her husband. Is there such true love exist nowadays? What will happen if it is Puteri Gunung Ledang who died first but not her husband? Will he do the same thing to reject if someone is interested to marry him?

Something popped up in my mind, is it only female are the loyal one? Is it male are always driven by lust? Is it only female willing to give all their best in love? What about male? I do not think so... This might be a hard topic to certain people. Deep in my heart, I admit, I don't dare to believe in love, because I do not want to bear with the pain. But somehow, I hope I am having the true love, the endless love right now. I hope he would always cherish our love. I hope he would not leave any scar in my heart too...

Hope the sharing of this story will somehow knock others attention about love... Puteri Ledang, your love story will always in my mind...

Reference:
Hasni Bin Hussin. (n.d). The Legend of Puteri Gunung Ledang (Princess of Ledang Mountain). Retrieved at
18 July 2010. Available at: http://www.tourism-melaka.com/puterigunungledang.htm