Time...

Time still tickling... It shows 1.21a.m. Everyone is on their bed but I'm not. Tonight I'm gonna talk about life and death. I have imagine maybe someday I will suddenly disappear from others sight... DEAD...

There are people who really hate that word, they say it's not the time yet, they have too much wishes that are not granted yet. Me, in the other hand, wish that my life would just ended like that. Perhaps dead in a car accident. Lying perfectly beautiful in my new home - coffin, show my last smile to those who visited me...

Readers might say that this author is haunted by suicide souls. Maybe... I have so much troubles in my life. I don't want to be a burden to others, that's why I ask for death.

I am a great actress in my life. I laugh although my heart is bleeding; I smile, although my tears is dropping; I speak, although my tongue is heavy. I feel happy when I saw everyone surrounding me is happy. I love everyone especially my best friends and my family. Thank you for loving me...

I always pray that I could LEAVE this world, not LIVE in this world. I know, this is not a good idea nor prayer... But what to do, Christian are prohibited from commit suicide... I really hate this life, sobbing all the time... I hate the hard feelings...

My whole life is haunted by tears and fears. I found no way to survive from these. Plus, the most horrible one, LONELINESS. Yes, I am a slave of loneliness. I hate to be alone, that is why I am the friend of lonely people. I can talk the language that they are talking, because I know how it feels...

This soul is now darkened because of my sympathy. I sympathy on wicked and dangerous people. Now I ended like this, as a funny topic to everyone. Maybe one day, I will enter the world of darkness forever. I sinned a lot, I ask for forgiveness a lot too. Somehow, today I have make an important decision in my life. And I will obey to this decision.

Time, please pass faster... I need rest.. I need eternal sleep... I need to bare with my responsible.. So time, please, pass faster...